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November 19th, 2011
06:55 am

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Doom-con 2012 Family BBQ and Programming Meeting
Doom-Con 2012!!!

It’s the end of the world as we know it!

Actually, it’s not really, but we can start planning for it like it is! Mark your calendars, diaries, and doomsday portals!

Doom-Con 2012 Family Picnic and Open Programming meeting
Sunday 11th December
At Synergy Playground, Kings Park.
Find us between the War Memorial and Zamia Café.
Cost: $10 adults, $5 children
Time 11.30am

Please RSVP if you expect to be attending so that we can adequately cater for you, especially if you have allergies or food requirements that need to be taken into account.

Bring a sense of fun and your programming ideas so we can start capturing sure fire methods to beat the Apocalypse, prevent the Zombie uprising and smite to smithereens the undead!

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October 24th, 2011
06:34 am

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Flowers from Mel and D's wedding
Did the bridal bouquets for my brother and now sister in law's wedding a couple of weekends ago. Unfortunately we didn't grab any photos of the bouquets whilst we were home, so I am having to wait for the bouquets to come through in other people's photos that I can leech from.

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October 6th, 2011
12:02 am

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Three Musketeers Screening
Hi everyone,

So sorry to do this, but the event date for Three Musketeers screening has changed - it's not actually being released till the week later. Screening is now set for the 21st. I have updated this, could you please check if you have already rsvped to make sure you are still able to attend?

Many thanks!
Linda

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September 8th, 2011
08:58 pm

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I promised myself I wouldn't do this...
Cause I didn't have time, cause I don't have a sewing machine, cause I didn't know how to sew...

And then I found out that I could do quilting using a piecing pattern...

And that I could handsew it a bit at a time. And I realised I was doomed...





The pattern is one I have been playing with for a while - I initially was going to do this years ago in blues. But I am actually really loving the colour scheme of this pattern right now, and loving how it is taking shape. Of course, it's incredibly slow going, and it's not very neat right now, but I am hoping it will eventually get better....

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July 9th, 2011
09:01 pm

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A minor request
I miss seeing all the quilting posts all my quilter friends put up. Could all my quilting friends please start quilting again so I can delight in your work vicariously? Thank you!

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July 4th, 2011
02:56 pm

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More QOTD
J: (different one to the first J)Oh look at the time, I must be going!
M: Good!
J: Good?
M: Do you really think I want to be sharing my lunch time?
J: Well I was hoping you'd share your lunch actually. What have you got?
M: Just some chicken casserole crap I threw together last night.
J: Wow that sounds so totally appealing. I'm sold!

Apparently I need to work on my marketing skills...

M: Want a fat froggy?
C: Is it chocolate?
M: Nope, but it's red food colouring!
C: That'll do. I'll have two so they can mate
M: In your tummy!

So whilst the red froggies haven't helped my headache, they have made me hyperactive! :)

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01:57 pm

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Quotes of the day
Once the sugar coating wears off, it doesn't go down very well at all. You kind of gag on it and need to drink a lot to get rid of the aftertaste.

J: No, I chew it up and swallow. :)
Me: You're much harsher than I am :) I tend to let it melt on my tongue so the flavour spreads and it becomes gooey and then swallow :)

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June 23rd, 2011
09:22 pm

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Jumping on the bandwagon
1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Where do you live:
4: What are you studying/What are you working as:
5. What makes you happy:
6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:
14. Contact info/twitter:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A song:
4: A band:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?

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June 7th, 2011
04:04 pm

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Oooh!
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god! How awesome am I at this point of time?!?!

*bounces happily*

This public service cryptic announcement brought to you by bounciness and a delight in myself I find unusual and disturbing! :)

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May 31st, 2011
11:08 pm

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Comfort food
Vegan About Town was asking for submissions regarding comfort food, which I am hastily contemplating having had much need for comfort food lately.

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April 29th, 2011
07:57 pm

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Conversation with my parents
Conversation with my parents this afternoon:
Me: I'm really sorry Mum and Dad but we haven't got you a present yet for Sunday, and I've run out of money so far.
Mum: You don't need to get us presents. We have enough as it is and it's more than enough to knwo you love us.
Dad: If you don't have a present for me, I'm not coming!
Me: If you're not coming, I don't have to get a present for you!
*cue silence as Dad tries to think of a way out of this*
Me: It's alright Dad, I still have your Easter present at home and seeing as I've missed Easter, I'll just wrap it and use it as your birthday present! :)
I think my Dad was not impressed :D

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February 7th, 2011
10:05 am

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Tin Duck Nominations
A reminder to all that Tin Duck Nominations are now open. I'm seeing some awesome lists of works eligible from artists and writers! I think it's fantastic that we can offer so much local talent. Please pay attention to these lists and nominate eligible works which you feel are worthy of nomination!

Works are eligible if they have been “published” (be it written work, art, performing art, podcast or convention running) in the 2010 calendar year, and must not have been voted on in any previous Tin Duck Award. Nominations will be validated by the Tin Duck Awards Committee, and may be moved to a different category if deemed necessary. Works nominated without a category may be deemed invalid by the Awards Committee. Nominations may be subject to short-listing in categories with large number of nominations.

Multiple nominations may be submitted for any category. Nominations must be received no later than midnight 13 March 2011. Any active fan may nominate works, but you must be a member of Swancon 2010 or Swancon Thirty Six to vote. Voting information will be released shortly after nominations close.

The award categories are:
Best WA Professional Long Written Work
Best WA Professional Short Written Work
Best WA Professional Art Work
Best WA Professional Production (any medium)
Best WA Unpaid or Fan Written Work
Best WA Unpaid or Fan Art Work
Best WA Unpaid or Fan Production

Nominate by going to http://2011.swancon.com.au/tin-duck-awards/. Please make sure you nominate early to ensure your nomination does not miss out!

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December 12th, 2010
07:53 am

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Bouncy hugs for Calli


Happy birthday hon! Huge amounts of love for a wonderful day, with lots more to come!

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September 22nd, 2010
06:59 am

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Social experiements
I conducted a phone poll recently, and this is a preliminary write up of some of those results.

Thoughts on my poll. Warning: topic of conversation is NSFW - mentions fellatio/head jobs etc. Please feel free to skip if you aren't interested.Collapse )

This entry was originally posted at http://linstar.dreamwidth.org/165633.html

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September 19th, 2010
06:49 pm

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Balloon animals
Michael thought this was a tiger when he first looked at it. Michael obviously needs more education. Thoughts? Comments peoples?



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August 31st, 2010
08:00 am

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Early morning thoughts
It's been a while since I did a brain dump. Early morning hours when I have nothing better to do seems like a perfect time to brain dump.

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August 27th, 2010
07:00 am

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Daffodil Day
It's Daffodil Day! Please go out and buy lots of daffodils in support of the Cancer Council. Even if you have no one to give them to! If you've got no one to give them to, buy them for work, for home, give them to someone on the street to make them feel better. Give them to me!

Just buy daffodils!!! (And email my husband to do the same! :) )

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August 11th, 2010
11:07 pm

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Musings amongst friends
It's been a while since I've done one of these. Pick as many or as few as you would like to answer.

Something you've always wanted me to know.

Why it is that HCN as an agency, sucks so much.

Why recruiters don't get back to you after they absolutely promise you they will?

A married friend tells you they have a crush on you. What is your reaction to this and why?

What your stance on the political front is at this point of time. Who will you vote for in the upcoming election and why?

What you would do if you won the lottery?

What you value most in a friendship, and what lengths would you go to for a friend?

What defines a crush for you?

Have your first impressions ever been wrong? If so, do you still tend to trust your first impressions?

Would you ever tell someone you had a crush on them if you were fairly convinced it would go nowhere? Why/why not?

If you had to describe me in five words, what would you use? Because?

Have fun! *grins* I should also probably add that people are certainly free to post anonymously if they think whatever they want to tell me will be taken incorrectly or they would rather not put a name to it.

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August 5th, 2010
07:50 am

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On body image
So I've been doing a bit of contemplation on this, last night and this morning. And I realise how much societal norms shit me when it comes to body image and self perception.

I was out at dinner with Penny and Doof last night, just the three of us, having a good time at a little place in Mount Hawthorn. We had a fantastic dinner, the food was good, the company was awesome. But as we stepped out of the restaurant, and were walking down the street, a bunch of randoms drove past and yelled out the window 'haha, fuck you're fat!'. And I know it was directed at me, Penny is small and thin and Doof isn't big either. And I felt myself burn up with shame for being fat.

I mentioned this to callistra this morning and her response was: so... strange driveby abusive twits have more value than the people who love you to which my response was Of course it does! Don't you know the people close to me are blinded by my insight and wit?

Yes I know I'm trying to make light of a serious subject. I know I am big. I know I carry a lot of extra weight. I get that this doesn't fit in with societal norms. But I felt that shame, and then felt angry at myself for falling to societal norm. I got angry at myself for being so superficial, when I know that's not what determines beauty and attractiveness to me.

It shits me that society dictates what is acceptable and what isn't. It shits me that I play into that by being ashamed of the person I am because some dick randomly shouted to the world I am fat.

Yes I am. But I have awesome friends who love me despite my size. They think I am compassionate, caring, wonderful, a good friend. Some of them even think I am attractive. bugs_jenny told me the other day, people don't tend to notice I am a bigger person when they get to know me, I carry my weight well and that for a bigger person, I am quite sexy! I can't ask for better friends than that, and these qualitites that those close to me see and love me for are never going to be qualities those people who drove past me yelling abuse will ever find out. But it still shames me to think that all society will ever see of me is my size, and not the person I am inside.

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July 29th, 2010
09:44 am

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The more I stay in this job, the more I want to just get in someone's face and yell at them to leave me the fuck alone and to let me do my fucking job. At 9.45, given I started at 9, we can tell today is already going to be a BRILLIANT day.

FUCKEN PEOPLE SHIT ME.

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July 28th, 2010
09:24 pm

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SQUUUUEEEEEE!!!!
Our new Chinese place has opened up finally at the shopping centre down the road. Chinese within walking distance is a paradox really, I am going to get fat regardless.

Tonight's menu was fried rice, fried Kway teow, lemon chicken and chilli salt squid, and can I just say it was all of it incredibly yummy and awesome! Fried rice is one of our staples of course, Doof adores it. I judge Chinese from their Kway Teow, one of my absolute favouritest menu items, and I wanted to see what their lemon chicken and chilli salt squid were like, as these are also good dishes to judge. The lemon chicken rocked - it was crispy and the lemon sauce tasted incredibly lemony and was just beautiful. The chilli salt squid lacked a bit of chilli but oh my god, the flavour of it was just delectible. The fried kway teow came out and weren't swimming in oil, and they tasted brilliant, and the friend rice had lots of stuff in it and tasted good as well.

They gave me free prawn crackers and a bottle of coke as well to thank me for being one of their first customers. Awesome! I like free stuff! Oh gods, I am going to put back on all the weight I have lost...

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July 22nd, 2010
11:45 pm

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Interview, interview, interview... please want me!
I went for an interview with Leadership WA last week with regard to an admin/event position within the company. I had only vaguely heard of Leadership WA to start with, I knew they organised a lot of keynote speaker presentations, and that was about it.

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July 19th, 2010
07:13 pm

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Doof amuses me
Conversations just had:

M: What are you doing?
D: Playing TF2
M: Wow, you started early tonight!
D: Yeah
M: Am I that entertaining?
D: Nooooo! *pauses* Wait, yes! Wait, is there a correct response to this question?

M: We're going to Calli and Chesh's Monday and Tuesday night next week, Monday for the Tupperware party and Tuesday for dinner.
D: Okay.
M: And I will be buying some Tupperware.
D: Okay
M: Just not $700 worth!
D: What???
M: I said just not $700 worth.
D: Oh that's good then!
M: It is?
D: Yes, it was very good that your last sentence had the word NOT in there!

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July 17th, 2010
01:38 pm

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The state of my mind
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Regarding judgment, regarding friendships, regarding me as a person. All of these were interrelated, so it's probably less thinking than I think I have been doing, but it's been something I have been thinking over for a while.

I've been thinking about what I value in friendship, what I want, what I am prepared to give. I've been thinking about how we judge people in that end, and how we go through the processes of deeming whether we want to take a risk on a friendship or whether we choose to stay distant. I've been thinking about me as a person, and how I fit into this overall equation, and what I want to portray to those that matter to me.

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July 11th, 2010
10:41 am

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Conversations had at 1.45am
We were packing up all our equipment from a call out this morning for a collapsed ceiling. I was trying to get the gen set ramp back in place and couldn't see what I was doing.

M: why won't this go back in place? Oh, cause I can't see what I'm doing. Ryan can you shine me?
R: Sure. Good thing you didn't ask me to flash you cause you know, you would have had to given me half an hour, and then I might have achieved it.
M: Half an hour?!?!
Bruce: Yeah and that's not taking into account the cold!
R: Oh man, it takes me so much longer when it's cold! Good thing I charge by the hour!
M: Man Ryan, half an hour, you've got to be the slowest stripper I know! You won't be making very much from that kind of show!
R: That's why I charge by the hour. The idea's to charge more to work less!

Ryan has just become one of the candidates for our SUSS awards - the awards we give out at our SES recognition night (unit level)where we recognise things whic are slightly circumspect :)

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June 29th, 2010
11:09 pm

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I ache for what could have been
We've been seeing quite a bit of Rita the last couple of weeks. She's taking it much better than I thought she would be taking things.

I took my mum with me a couple of Sundays ago. Partly as a support to me but also as an additional support for Rita so she wouldn't think she had to fight this alone. Mum and I discussed it afterwards, and how the visit went. We were lucky in that they've let us have a couple of extended visits without needing for us to book extended visits, so it's been good. The visit with mum was one of the extended visits, we got to spend about an hour with her then. And tonight's visit, we got an hour and a half with her.

She's trying so hard. It must be so difficult to get up each day and face the day. I'm not sure how she does it. But tonight's visit made me ache inside in so many ways. We were chatting about things in general, we were talking about movies and books, food etc and it was just casual conversation but the kind of casual conversation where you walk away nourished for being on the same page as someone else, it was the kind of conversation which fed memories. And it made me realise how much everyone has failed her, how much the system has let her down, how much she has let herself down, and how much of a chasm there exists now. For several moments, I caught a glimpse of the person she could have been if she'd been nurtured and had someone to turn to. We laughed, we joked, she even casually ribbed Michael about his cooking. This is the relationship we had when we were growing up together. This was in essence a glimpse of the person I knew and loved. This is how it should have been, rather than the estranged silence and the drifting apart that had instead come into play the last few years.

I wish I knew more about mental illness back then to have been able to be a better support for her. I wish I was a less selfish person, and had made the time to check up on her, make sure she really was okay, instead of accepting her at face value. I wish I had seen how lonely she had become. I wish I had honestly been there more.

It made me ache so much inside. So much lost, so much loss. Such a waste of years, both for Rita and myself and for the children who paid that ultimate price. So much that could have been, should have been. And I'm left with a bundle of regrets which drift through my memories and thoughts. I'm left wondering how things would have been different, if only I'd been there more often for her.

She rang me the other day to quickly ask me a question, and concluded the conversation with a very hesitant 'when do you think you'll be able to come see me again?' to which my response had been either Monday or Tuesday. And she'd breathed a sigh of relief and told me that would be excellent and she looked forward to it. I find it so very very upsetting that a visit from me is a highlight for her.

I asked her tonight if she wanted me to be in court with her, and she'd responded with she hadn't wanted to ask in case it imposed, but she would really love it if I could be there with her. I'm so sad she felt it would have been an imposition :(

I wish I was a better person sometimes. I really do.

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June 20th, 2010
10:34 pm

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Conversations that make you worry....
Carla and I were talking. Jason was trying to be inconspicuous because his bag was late to go over to the hospital, and so was trying to sidle past. Carla was glaring at him and making the fist punching the hand motion in his direction except he wasn't paying very much attention and missed it. So Carla called for his attention and made the action so he could see it and he tried to tell us we shouldn't hurt him too much cause he really liked us and had a lot of respect for us.

I raised my eyebrow at him and told him I'd taught Carla the benefit of sucking yesterday (Thursday seeing as this conversation took place on Friday).

Jason stops walking away, turns around and comes back to my desk and says oh?

Carla pipes up and says yeah, it was my first experience and I sucked him dry! Linda taught me how to suck a koala!

I said to Jason, I was a bit concerned though that she had to ask whether she should suck from the top end or the bottom end.

Jason got this absolutely broken look on his face and backed away slowly. Ah the things I do at work during work hours...

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May 9th, 2010
11:49 am

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Grr argh
I have an assignment due this evening - group blog on a topic of our choosing to deal with hospitality, tourism and events. I have to say I hate, hate, HATE group assignments. It always sucks, especially when you are doing a correspondence course because people can't get their shit together.

I contacted the others in my group four weeks ago to give us plenty of time to get things organised. I heard back from one after a week, and the second one after two weeks. The third one eventually contacted me and said she had deferred her studies. I sent the other two emails again at two weeks out making some suggestions about topics and how we could go about it.

Nothing heard.

I started to write up some bits and pieces and started to do my research etc. I sent it out to them. Still nothing heard. Last weekend, I sent them both a message saying this assignment is due this week, get your act together.

Our lecturer had sent a message saying that if we'd been unable to contact our groups, consider forming a new group with these people. This was on Tuesday night.

The other student contacted me and we decided to put together a presentation. We both worked incredibly hard, and got most of it finished off yesterday.

I got a message at 9.45 this morning saying that one of the students in my original group would have stuff for me at 6pm tonight and wanted us to have it ready by 9pm. I don't know where she is but I am guessing she is in the Eastern States. 6pm her time makes it 4pm here, and 7pm for her submission by 9pm. I have family commitments for the rest of the day.

I sent back a polite message saying I'm sorry, but due to your lack of response, I got together with another student, and we have done our presentation. I think you need to contact the lecturer.

But there's a part of me which feels guilty now for having done this - that I didn't stick out with my original group. I just wasn't prepared to take the chance I would be sitting here trying to get things done on my own at the last minute. Was I wrong to change groups do you think?

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May 1st, 2010
04:55 pm

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A country wedding
This was a very simple bouquet for a wedding today. I was asked to do the bouquet by a work colleague, who then picked it up this morning as they were driving past as the wedding was beyond York somewhere. I ended up doing the flowers last night and was quite happy with them.






Buttonhole - lavender and wheat in focus


To show the lavendar and wheat interspersed through the bouquet

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April 26th, 2010
11:38 pm

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Lest we forget - picspam

The wreath for Anzac Day


Different angle


Doofy took this gorgeous photo of the soldiers in the regalia of times past.


Tex. I adore Tex. All those medals on the left hand side are his. I am thankful he joined us for this important day. I am thankful I can turn around and thank him for his efforts. I am glad he could make it when he hasn't been well. I worry about him since he has moved away to Geraldton and is no longer in our vicinity.


R and his daughter - the future is oh so bright and so worthwhile.


A and T ( our latest recruits) walking with the wreath in prepartion of laying it.


A and T laying the wreath - mainly A whilst T looks. I love this moment - when they get to represent the unit and lay our wreath. It fills me with pride that I am a part of this community, and that through our actions, whilst it may not be as pronounced as the soldiers, but through our actions, we too give back a little to the community, and that what we do is for the greater good.

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10:52 pm

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Passionfruit Icecream
I made some passionfruit icecream today to follow up from the success of the mango sorbet last week. (Photos to come later). I am just writing this post very quickly to proclaim my love for my husband cause he will let me have the passionfruit icecream seeing as he ate all the mango sorbet :)

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April 20th, 2010
10:49 pm

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I miss my best friend!
I miss my best friend. True, she only lives 15 minutes away from me, I could theoretically just pop in and see her. But she's had a lot on her plate recently, and so it would be adding extra stress to just 'pop in' as such. And she's been unwell. But that doesn't mean I don't worry about her or think of her any less... in fact I probably think of her more knowing things aren't well for her.

Which is why when she indicated she was okay to talk, I spent close to two hours on the phone with her today - about half an hour whilst I was at work, and about an hour and a half just then.

It's amazing how much more even keeled my world is having heard her and spoken to her and shared a laugh or two with her.

It's the kind of friendship that won't ever die because there is too much there to bond us, and for both of us, not having the other around causes too much dissonance.I love how much it resonates with me, I love the sense of right it fills me with and I love that our friendship is just casual and carefree and relaxed and we can talk about all sorts of things. Yep, I miss my best friend.

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April 14th, 2010
09:32 pm

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A thank you and some flowers :)


A thank you present from David and Kerry for helping them out with their wedding. A thank you present of awesomeness - I wasn't expecting anything at all!



Kerry and her bridal party all looking superb in their dresses. I was really pleased with the flowers, they complimented the colours of the dresses so well. I had taken Kerry to the wholesalers to see what was available seeing as the flowers we had initially been wanting were not available, and we happened across the proteas. We both looked at each other and went hey! The pink and chocolate in the proteas was what made us decide to experiment with them for her bouquet, and I have to say, the colours are fantastic together!



Close up of Kerry's bouquet.



Close up of one of the bridesmaids bouquets - which was essentially the same as Kerry's but a bit smaller.



David and his party



Close up on Jeremy and the buttonholes

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April 6th, 2010
12:47 pm

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A quick thought on the value of my time
I came to an understanding of myself last night. I've come to realise that my time is actually a commodity, and like other goods and services is not infinite, and that it should be valued.

I learnt this lesson an incredibly hard way yesterday.

I think in previous times, I wouldn't have recognised how valuable my time was. I give of myself and really don't expect much in return for what I tend to give out to other people. I didn't expect thanks, and was often taken aback when someone thought to say 'hey, thanks for your time'. My standard response would have been 'Oh, it was nothing' or 'I didn't do very much'.

I think by diminishing the value of my time myself, I have done myself a huge disservice, and it's now come about that because I have not valued my time or taken care of myself well enough, others have not learnt to value my time either.

And I realise most of the falling outs I have had recently have been because I have felt devalued, that I've not felt like I have been appreciated. I don't know when this came about, that my sense of self started valuing my time. I don't know when it came about that I started to appreciate someone saying to me, thank you for your time, thank you for your effort, thank you for what you put in. But my realisation of this came to me yesterday.

I was incredibly, incredibly hurt yesterday. So much so that I left Swancon without saying goodbye to anybody. I'd grabbed the keys of Michael and went and waited in the car.

I understand it was my choice to quit. But previous to quitting, I had put in a lot of effort and hard work. I guess I'd kind of been hoping that would have meant something, and that the committee would have said thank you for that. I don't know - maybe that's high expectations, but to me I guess it is just common courtesy.

I'm not doing this now for public accolade. I'm doing this personally because I deserve in myself to recognise I put a lot of work in, and I tried. I think the work I put in was of a decent quality, and so for myself, I am telling myself, I did good. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, but for myself, I acknowledge the amount of work I did so I don't go on devaluing both my time and effort. I have to learn to break that cycle first before I can expect anyone else to value my time or effort.

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April 5th, 2010
08:54 pm

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Swancon
So.. all I am seeing are Swancon reports.

From a personal perspective, I'm kind of glad it's over.

For my own personal record, following the www of SES - what went well? What didn't go so well? What could be done to make it better?

Please note, this is not a bag out everything about the con. I just want to know what people thought went well, not so well and what can be done better in future... something I can refer back to if I ever decide to run my own con...

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March 27th, 2010
09:45 pm

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So... Just to make sure I understand...
Wikipedia describes social discourse as: a discourse is considered to be a formalized way of thinking that can be manifested through language, a social boundary defining what can be said about a specific topic or, as Judith Butler puts it, "the limits of acceptable speech"—or possible truth.

Therefore education can be seen to endorse discourses such as autocractic rule in classrooms - where the emphasis is on the autocracy - the teacher is in charge, the teacher is usually correct and the students don't get very much say in what they are doing.

Is this correct? Does autocracy count as a social discourse? Or am I misunderstanding this completely?

Current Mood: confusedconfused

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March 21st, 2010
10:10 pm

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For goth_kittie

The boy being a spunky monkey





I *like* this one a lot


This is what it means to be family to me. The fact that we all get along, and have a good time with each other, and genuinely care about each other. I adore this shot as well.

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March 18th, 2010
10:47 pm

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Whee! New games!
Doof and I recently bought some new board games from Games Paradise. The selection they offered was great, however it took much longer than I thought to actually receive our board games.

We purchased TransEuropa, Tobago, Bananagrams (this was for me) and 10 Days in Europe which looked like a fun little game. Tobago we had been introduced to at Neil and Ivette's place when we happened to drop in one night, and observed. This was an awesoem game! Hence our inspiration to purchase it, and TransEurpoa I thought I remembered seeing around at Swancon. (Turns out I was right, for which I am very thankful).

Anyways, Doof and I had a couple of quick games of 10 Days in Europe. This is a very simple game to learn and play. The basic idea is that you have a heap of countries and you have to design a 10 day journey by making your countries connect. If you have neighbouring countries on the map, then these are considered connected, otherwise you need to connect them by sea or by air. The catch being that if you are connecting by plane, you can only connect to countries of the same colour. It plays quickly though, we managed two games in about half an hour once we worked out what we were doing, and it was lots of fun :) Can't wait to introduce others to this :)

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March 17th, 2010
07:01 am

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Kick-Ass Preview Screening Review


I don't often tend to do movies and I do movie reviews even less, but I felt the need to do this one, one seeing as it was a preview screening and two, it was fantastic.

I had absolutely no idea what to expect given I am not a comic book fan, but it looked fun and silly. It was described by Universal Pictures as: A twisted, funny, high octane adventure, Matthew Vaughn brings KICK ASS to the big screen. KICK ASS tells the story of average teenager Dave Lizewski (Aaron Johnson), who decides to take his obsession with comic books as inspiration to become a real-life superhero. As any good superhero would, he chooses a new name -- Kick Ass -- assembles a suit and mask to wear, and gets to work fighting crime. There’s only one problem – Kick Ass has absolutely no superpowers. And I was really surprised to find how much I enjoyed it.

Being a comic book movie, there were a lot of references to other comics/movies based on comics such as Spiderman, Batman and Superman. I missed some of the references (bugs_jenny and waylanderpk had to explain some of it afterwards) but this didn't detract from the movie itself.

There was A LOT of blood and gore. But done in such a way that it didn't detract from the movie and I found myself inwardly cheering some of the blood and gore scenes! (Very unusual for me - I'm not generally a fan of blood and gore and can get quite squeamish about it all!)

There were a lot of unexpected highs. Hit Girl by far was one of my absolute favourite characters. The grace with which she moves... wow :) And I kind of really like the fact that the geeks can get the hot girls in the end :)

I'm not going to give too much of the plot away. Suffice to say I really enjoyed it, and hope you all think about going and seeing it when it opens!

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March 8th, 2010
09:26 pm

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I am so much more than a host for meetings and a minute taker
In light of something said earlier, I would like to state for the record I am so much more that a host for meetings and a minute taker.

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It doesn't look like much when it's broken down like that, but I feel I made a significant contribution. Certainly enough for me to not feel guilty about walking away now.

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March 7th, 2010
06:45 pm

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My difficult decision
Last week I mentioned that I had made one of the hardest decisions I have ever made.

It comes with great regret that I advise I have resigned from my position of Secretary of this year's Swancon committee.

This was not a decision that was lightly made in any sense of the word. It was also a decision that was made by me, and me alone, in the overall scheme of things. My reasons for resigning are my own. I'd like you to keep that in mind before you start accusing and blaming and pointing the finger.

It is not a blame game. Things have happened, and I find the vision of this Swancon is no longer something I can make happen personally. Nor can I commit as much time and effort anymore.

I understand public opinion will be divided on this. Please do not use this as a forum to express your opinion. If you have an opinion you feel you must expressively emit, please mail me or find me at the con to discuss this. Do not take this out on the rest of the committee because they are not at fault. It was my choice to resign, and I chose to do so for my own reasons.

Mail can still come through to secretary-2010@swancon.com.au. I will make sure it is forwarded on to the relevant people.

I'd like to take the time to express to this year's Swancon committee my sincere thanks for letting me be a part of their venture. I had a lot of fun along the way, I've met some incredible people and I've learnt a huge amount. I only hope that they have also benefited from having me on board and that I have added something of value to them as well. Thank you also to everyone who has helped me along the way. Your assistance and advice have been invaluable.

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11:00 am

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Appreciation.
I am pondering the effects of people after a long conversation with my brother. And my basic conclusions are that it doesn't take much to let someone know they are appreciated. It's funny how society works sometimes. We become afraid to tell people when they have done a good job in case they end up with a swelled ego. But yet, it's what we should do! I mean yeah sure, they may end up thinking they are god's gift, but honestly, if they have done the work and it is appreciated, why not tell them? It's the little things which make a difference right?

My brother has been having problems in his marriage lately, and the damage that has been done is probably irreparable. But it never needed to get to that point. If they had told each other once in a while that they appreciated each other it might have been different.

So it comes down to the fact that I think society makes too big a deal about not telling people what a good job they have done, when I think it should be the exact opposite. I think people should be told when they have done something you appreciate or have done a good job. Tell them often if you do appreciate them so that they don't feel as though they are being taken for granted. So, to all those in my life, thank you. I really do appreciate all you do and are.

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March 5th, 2010
07:26 am

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Tin Duck Ballot Form
Tin Duck Ballot form is now available and can be found here

Completed ballots may be mailed to Tin Ducks Awards Committee, PO Box 555, Inglewood WA 6932. Posted ballots need to be postmarked no later than 25th March 2010. Alternatively, completed ballots may be placed in the ballot box in the Registration Area of the Convention before 5pm, Saturday 3rd April 2010. Voting is open to full and supporting members of Swancon. Voting is by Optional Preferential Voting. Number as many boxes, as you wish in each category, in the order of your preference, 1 being your first choice. You do not have to number every box. The Tin Duck Committee reserves the right to make further decision on the validity of nominees. Ballot form must be clearly signed by the voter. Only one ballot form per person.

Programme to follow - probably later tonight or this weekend!

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March 3rd, 2010
09:23 pm

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*sighs*
I have spent a lot of time this week in quiet contemplation. I have made one fo the hardest decisions I have ever had to make. It was hard, it was emotional.

goth_kittie tells me it was by far the best decision and by far the most right decision. I hope she is right....

Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative

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February 26th, 2010
12:47 pm

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Long weekend
Doof and I are about to leave and head up to Dongara for the weekend - Carla suggested it and we all booked in nto realising it was going to be stupidly hot today.

I'm looking forward to a weekend away actually. I think I need this time to just recuperate, and not feel pressured to do anything regarding Swancon.

It will still be here next week, and nothing will have changed :( I'll stress about it then but for now, I'm going to enjoy my weekend away with my gorgeous husband and good friends.

Bring on the alcohol cocktails by the pool!

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February 25th, 2010
07:46 am

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A rant about professionalism
It's been a while since I have posted anything of substance on here. But this was a thought floating around and I thought I should post it, as an anchor and a turning point in my own thought process.

This is going to come across as though there are more problems than there are. That's not necessarily true. It's just the problem there is, is big and right now, I can't fix it sufficiently.

I am, in my work areas, and in other areas, a reasonably organised person. I can work to deadlines, I can prioritise and I can make things happen. I am the one everyone else throws their work to when they get busy and I am the one who gets work dumped on me because it will get done. I understand that, I understand in part this is my own doing, because I strive for the sense that I am professional and capable.

In a professional capacity, I will always give the best of my ability, and I personally think the best of my ability is pretty damn awesome. If I set my mind to something, I will do it, and I will do it well, because my own work ethics do not allow me to do anything other than a job I will be satisfied with.

How does this work however, when I am involved in a group venture? How do I make people understand that there are things I want, and need in order to progress what I am doing? How do I get them to be aware of the deadlines approaching, when they aren't willing to meet me half way at all and give me the raw information? How do I escalate this, when the people I need to escalate it, don't currently have the ability to make this work for me?

I've asked for the things I need. I've said to them that they can give me the raw information and I will go through and make it work. I understand they have more family and life commitments than I do (there's a part of me that disagrees with this given how much I do externally to work and home, but in this circumstance, I do honestly believe their family commitments are much more taxing than mine), I understand they may be busy and don't get a chance to check their emails etc as often as they should be. But this isn't working for me.

I stress more when I can't be organised and when I feel it will be a reflection of the work I put in. In this circumstance, it's not a personal reflection, it's an all encompassing reflection, but I don't like that. I am a part of this venture as well. And I will therefore accept the same amount of responsibility and the same amount of flack that comes our way as a result of one person not being able to get their act together.

I don't care what they have and haven't done to this point. I don't care if they come to handover and there is still a pile of stuff to be done. I just need the information. It's getting to the point where if I leave it too much longer, it really is going to fall down around me. But I can't make this person understand how much I need this stuff.

They aren't listening, they aren't paying any attention to what is happening, and it pisses me off, and frustrates me to no end, especially as I have tried in all circumstances to make it easier for them. I am still trying to make it easier for them now, by telling them to give me the information they have and I will make it happen. I can't think how much simpler I can make it aside from that. I can then take over and answer questions, I can then make sure the rest of the information I need is done. Am I wrong in thinking if I take this off their hands, then they are free to deal with their familial stressors and don't have to commit that time anymore? Am I wrong in thinking that this would be the most logical explanation for everyone?

I'm feeling extremely isolated, which I know isn't true. Others in the group have been extremely appreciative and have bent over backwards to make things happen for me. But I feel isolated in this experience because it feels as though there is nothing I can do, the upper chain avenues where this demand should be coming from aren't able to make this happen either. I'm extremely pissed off that one person has the ability to make or break all the effort we have spent trying to make this happen. And I hate that this will reflect on my ability, and on my professionalism, because it's not the way I work. It's not what I do. I do things professionally. Things get done. Things get organised. I'm good at this. This to me is an extremely half assed effort. But there is nothing more I can do and this frustrates me immensely.

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February 24th, 2010
07:03 am

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More public service announcements
Hi everyone!

Some more announcements, which have quickly come through

Hotel rooms
The hotel has advised us, after the walk through on Friday, that there are a very limited number of rooms available now. Don't forget if you are coming to Swancon, to get in quickly and book your room to avoid disappointment!

Children's Program
We are still looking for people to help with the Children's program, and having some child friendly activities. If you have any suggestions of what can be done or if you are able to contribute any time at all, please contact us on secretary-2010@swancon.com.au

Tin Duck Nominations
Tin Duck Nominations have now closed. The ballot form will hopefully be available after this weekend once all the nominations have been collated and shortlisted where applicable. Thank you to all who took the time to nominate!

Program
A copy of the program will be made available by Monday night. There are still a few things to be fixed, please do not take this as a definitive as we are aware there are still a few issues with it. This will be definitely be up Monday night, please go to www.swancon.com.au and click on the program to view it.

Excitement levels are building within the committee and we are all looking forward to the con now!

P.S. Was anyone still wanting some tickets to the preview screening of Kick Ass? I still have a few tickets left as sent out by Universal Studios. The Preview screening is on the 16th of March at 6.45pm at Reading Cinemas. It looks like a fantastically fun film which will fit right up Swancon's alley. Please email me on linda@cnspc18.murdoch.edu.au if you would like a ticket.

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February 21st, 2010
09:56 am

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Last Call for Tin Duck Nominations
Just a reminder to all that Tin Duck nominations will close at midnight tonight. Please make sure you get your nominations in by heading to www.swancon.com.au and nominating! Support local talent, recognise the effort they put into their work and please nominate!

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February 20th, 2010
10:32 am

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Quotes from last night
JW, JG, Doof and I met at the All Seasons last night after they had all been for a walk through and asked questions etc. I then came along and asked tham all kinds of things. They stared at me... a lot.

Me: You people had no idea what you were in for when you asked me to join your committee did you? I should come with a warning sign!
Doof: Whippings will occur!

JW: We *can't* make the budget stretch to accomodate your slaves!
JG: I'll pay for it out of my own funds!

JG: We need to keep her happy! I'm sure we can fit a budget line in there somewhere along the lines of Keeping Linda happy fund. I'm sure WASFF will look at it an approve it... $23,000 to keep Linda happy? Sure, no worries.

M: Think how dangerous I would be if I had federal power!
JG: Ah so that's how it's done! You take over the government, use the money to get the power, and then use the money and the power to get the women.
M: So seeing as I'm already a woman, does that just mean I need money and power?
JW: Well you already have the power as well, so all you really need is the money.
M: Sugar daddy, here I come!!!!

JW was telling me about the floats at Dragoncon and how they shut off a main street to do costume parade.
M: (after considerable thought) JW, I want my own float!
JG: I say yes!
JW stares at him
JG: Cause that way, (points to JW) he can be the one responsible for saying no!
JW continues to stare at him.

JG: After the con, we are going to have a talk.
M: You don't want to talk to me. I haven't see any Star Wars, LOTR, Back to the Future or anything!
JW: Really?
JG: What about BSG?
M: Nope
JG: What about Star Trek?
M: Nope
JW is curled up in a ball by this stage
JG: What about
JW: No, please, stop! I can't stand it anymore!

JG: I know I'm a fool for saying this but I really want to run another Swancon!
*cue maniacal laughter from JW and myself*

JG turns to Doof: Can I borrow your wife in two years time for two years?
Doof: You'll need to submit an application in triplicate, which will then be sent in, sent back, lost, found, queried, subjected to public inquiry, lost again, and finally buried in soft peat for three months and recycled as firelighter.

M: You all should just listen to me and do as I say! It'll make everything a lot easier.
JG: Yes all knowing, we should
M: But yet, you still try and thwart me!
JW: It's the power play thing. We attempt, get slapped, we attempt again, get slapped again, and eventually we will just cower.

Poor JW spent a lot of time with his head in his hands last night :) I love that they are nice enough to let me have my way :)

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09:35 am

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I think I broke my Treasurer's brain a little last night... Oops :) I didn't mean to Jay! Sorry! Please can I still have my gleamingly oiled slaves and my own float??? :)

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